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Abuse can be a catalyst for personal and social transformation

Updated: Jul 3, 2022


Social transformations occur when 'survivors' tell about their experiences and take other actions that enlighten others, obtain justice, and prevent recurrences of similar events.


What is abuse?


Abuse begins as a child and it is difficult to understand because children trust adults, it is the only world they know and do not have the tools to understand what is happening to them.


Then, children grow up, became adults.

And so, some of us, throughout our lives, find ourselves trapped in unhealthy relationships without, often, understanding why.


I understood abuse in mature age. In 2015 I fell in love with Laszlo.

Then, as the days went by, our relationship became more and more violent.

For the first time I am able to observe my situation.

I listen to my inner voice, I observe my thoughts, I feel my negative emotions, I am present and I do not understand why I am in love with a man who tells me - "I love you"but then 'he treats me badly'.


With my camera I feel the urge to want to explore what is love and I look for encounters who I can talk with.


love, sex and relationships is a video-photography project that was born from an abusive romantic relationships with my ex partner.

Episodes of physical and psychological aggression are repeated continuously. Added to this are the constant discussions, threats and humiliations.


Slowly I begin to realise the automatic mechanisms of thought, defence and my emotions explode. I begin to look at my anger, violence, discomfort, confusion. The situation causes me high stress and pain.

I often feel empty and misunderstood.

I am constantly talking to myself.

Sometimes I visit Claudia, my best friend in Mile End and tell her my story.

I take a bottle of wine with me. We talk for hours.

She advises me to leave him, to get myself out of the situation.

But I don't see what she sees.


I was so attached to that pain that I could not separate myself from it and did not recognise it.
I had lost my self-esteem.
I thought there was something wrong with me and not with him.
He said he loved me. I was attracted and attached to it.


One day I start writing a lot of questions on a piece of paper.

The first is - what is love?

I decide to leave the house, with my cameras in search of dialogue, intimate conversations.

For the first time I wonder what I'm experiencing, if this arguing, blaming, taking offence, hitting each other, not understanding was what I call love.


Many of us treat each other like this, we hide, we scream, we shut ourselves up. We don't face our fears. It will be due to our deepest insecurities, the ones we know we have and don't want to see.


In love, sex and relationships I meet other couples and individuals who I interview, listen to and take photographs of.



What is abuse?


Abuse in a relationship is more frequent than one might think.

A parent, brother, sister, a friend can abuse us.

And we of them.


Sometimes others don't know they are abusing you.

And you don't know you're abusing them.

It can happen in both cases.


There are very complex automatic mechanisms of thought and behaviour that we are not aware of.

Sometimes we understand the discomfort and move away, other times we stay in unhealthy situations hoping that 'they can change'.

Situations often repeat themselves over time.

Even with different partners, the energy of the relationship is the same, it does not change.

Why? Have you ever asked yourself?

Our husband or wife, our child, we ourselves can harm ourselves.

Abuse kills.

There are people, even us, who are imbued with negative energy, who have been carrying around for a lifetime and who do not know it.

They don't know because they have never been able to see themselves from the outside.

Growing up with an abusive parent changes you in ways you don't know.

The person who is supposed to love you unconditionally is the same person who makes your life hell.

If one parent does this what can others do?

A parent who forces you into such an environment is as if he were stealing your childhood. Because it forces you to stay at its level.

If he can't control himself/herself, you have to try